Almost a year

It's hard to believe that on this day one year ago I went into labor. I remember the day so clearly. I want to take a moment to reflect on this last year. I find it amazing how much you learn and grow as a person as you learn to communicate and care for your baby. Sofia hasn't been the easiest of babies to learn with, but her rate of physical and metal development has been so incredible and satisfying to watch. I grow more and more proud of her every day.

Spending the last year living everyday moment to moment like a baby has made time go by so fast. Living in this moment not thinking about tomorrow or yesterday has been eye opening. It leaves a lot of dishes undone and laundry piled up. But I'm okay with it. Sometimes I do wish she was able to understand what "just a minute means", especially when going to the bathroom is involved.

Watching her evolve into a little person as been endlessly exciting. Seeing her develop likes and dislikes, body language and mannerisms. It makes me so excited for what's to come.

Being on the mother side of a birthday is very interesting. It is an exciting day not only because your child has lived another year, but because you get to remember their birth. Whether it was magical or not so magical, it's an unforgettable experience. I know I will be reflecting back on it every time October 20th comes around. I would say the 21st, but she was born at 12:01 on the 21st. So I reflect on the journey up to the moment of her birth.

I think I will take a moment to celebrate myself on this day as well. Physically I'm back to normal, minus the stretch marks and slight change in body shape. I love myself more now then ever before. Being a mama is a comfy, sensual and earthy existence. I highly recommend it.